The Climb

I call today "the Climb" because it is a day in a life of a single mother in which you find yourself climbling through the rubble of your emotions. It is a day when you feel totally spent. In search for the want to keep climbing. I know God has given me a promise a new path a new journey, but the only way to get there is to climb it alone and it makes me weary and feeling lost. If I can paint a picture for you... a day where my life was tired of scenes of tears and trying to gain the life of laughter. I sat on the floor with my hands in my face asking my Beautiful god questions. Then my mind comes to the thought of a sea of lilies and we have made it. The pain remembered but no longer needing to be birthed. A day where the climb up that rocky mountain seems taxing. I have started the climb but I see myself today just sitting in the middle, not moving up because of my weary thoughts and not wanting to loose what I have already gained. I look down for someone to take over for me and I know there is no one to do that for me. A thought of Jeremiah 29:11-13 & I know that this is my climb and I find the strength to keep searching for my sunshine. Because in the midst of that sun is fire and there I will be consumed by him and that's all my heart wants at the end of my day...my climb to seek him and know when I have reached him I have found Heb 12:29 for our God is a consuming fire. My sunshine is him. So I find the climb again.