So since November I have seem to have lost track. I have experienced a loss of a brother in law who loved his 2 daughters deeply. Which has left me deeply sorrowful for my 2 beautiful nieces. So I committed this year to fast & pray for them as any family member would for their grieving young ones. His death effected me in a way that awakened my senses, working on not being a selfish, self involved person, simply because life is to short & time just runs out so fast and before you know it we sit back and wish we had made a bigger stamp on our world. With that thought I come to hold onto col. 1:16 that all things are made by him and for him. So my life is not my own to hold onto but to give back to my creator my savior my God. Jesus Christ whom I owe my every breath to for his sovereignty on my life. I don't have any answers for my life and where I am at today but wow I am amazed at my God and the wonders he allows me to see daily. People who give their lives for the gospel who so willing follow Jesus not by saying it but by living it. My heart & prayers are with those who give their lives back to Christ. They are the ones who encourage my soul to blaze a trail for Christ with my life & the lives of my children. To all who do so much for Christ you are my examples my strength & I love you for loving my God so much. To my children this year as we live, that you would see mommy give to others in away I have never given before. To my Alayna as you continue to pray in tongues and have great fear of the lake of fire ha! keep praying. To my Ava my realist with extreme faith in God, that your faith would never be shaken & that God keeps speaking to me and you through your dreams. Which by the way is so amazing. To my King that I would fall more & more in love with you as you keep revealing yourself to me in ways I never thought were possible, I serve you with all my heart and may your 3 girls minister to you this year.
